winter=theworst

holy shit,
our house is looking empty and strange
folks are moving out
there's only me and one other person staying here now
ahhhhhh. on the plus side I've found a place to move to for the end of the month, fuck yeah!
but i'm sad. and i don't know if it is because i'm leaving this place or leaving halifax soon.

i went to a show last night and it was really fun. i got to talk to a lot of folks i haven't seen in a while and it was great. i felt really awkward and weird at first but then it was awesome. oh, and the bands were good except for one surprise set with dudes who decided they'd show up and play. but the bloodwashed band and 4-lom were amazing!

i'm going to keep packing my room. i don't have the heart to take down my posters yet..

i'm also procrastinating doing school work. i can't wait till there is a day when i don't have to say that anymore.

leaving

staying calm, sort of.

school: way behind, scared. met with my supervisor, was horrified, but it was a good meeting and i feel stoked/supported on getting this project done. will break it down into smaller parts to tackle it. i'm going to need more coffee.

life:
crushing on a friend, it's weird. i don't like crushes. this person is really fucking cool, bleghhh. i wish i was more confident and able to express myself.

moving: i'm fucking leaving halifax, and it's making me hella sad. some days I'm stoked on going, cause it's associated with school, stress and drama. but most of the time i love this town and the wonderful folks i've met here. i live by the ocean! and there's a lot of dogs in this city! lakes won't compare. also, the activism and rad shit that goes on here is great and i haven't experienced anything like this in the other places i've lived. 

i've taken a position at the wildlife center in sudbury. i'll be back in ontario. i was avoiding this, but i was back there over the holidays and volunteering at the center. we talked about rehabbing moose and coons, and my heart was aching - i miss that stuff! I just dislike sudbury, but i'm hoping i can get over that, there's a lot of beautiful places outside the town, and i love the work i'll be doing, and will likely be too busy to do anything else anyway. i'll be living in lively at the wildlife center with jake, which is really great. i did look around at other rehab places, but they needed me to start right away, and i need to finish school.

just stretched both my conches, sleeping will not be pleasant for a while.